I am an outgoing lively girl. I love to go on adventures and trips around the world if we can find the time. I love challenges. I can be pretty quiet unless your one of my family or a really close friend. I'm honest and loyal to the core. Being the oldest it's easy for me to take charge of things and get the ball rolling. My siblings call me bossy sometimes, but I'm just looking out for them. I tend to keep thing bottled up till they explode too. One secret I've kept from River for over ten years now is more than boiling. Only my best friend and sister Ryot knows my deepest darkest secret. It's something I can hardly talk about. Well my parents know too I guess, but since I was a minor they had to be told.

[smear:#9f0000]Positive Traits:[/smear:#967259:0]
1)Honest: Honorable in intentions; straightforward in conduct.
2)Loyal: Unswervingly devoted to my family and friends.
3)Adventurous: Willing to try new experiences and take risks.
4)Passionate: Being capable of or expressing deep feeling.
5)Nature-Focused: Preferring natural resources over artificial ones; being strongly attuned to nature.
6)Protective: Inclined to safeguard, shield, or carefully supervise the persons or items in one's charge.

[smear:#967259]Negative Traits:[/smear:#9f0000:0]
1)Stubborn: Unyielding or obstinate.
2)Perfectionist: Perceiving anything less than perfection as failure.
3)Verbose: Wordy; inclined to say more than is needed with family and friends.
4)Self-Indulgent: Satisfying one's appetites, passions, and whims without restraint.
5)Evasive: Having an unforthcoming manner; avoiding self-revelation.
6)Mischievousness: Maliciously or impishly troublesome.

The day was frigid, and a blizzard was raging outside the day I came into this world. It was December 1st. Dad was ready for this day and so was mom. Ready to welcome their firstborn into the world. The Doctor had made it to the ranch right before the blizzard hit. With the Doctor being Clay's father, he was at home, since he lived with them after his wife had died of cancer.

I came screaming into this world just as the power went out I was told, and gramps almost dropped me. The light from the raging fire in the fireplace wasn't lighting up the living room that well. Thankfully he caught me and put me in mom's waiting arms while he cut the umbilical cord. About an hour later a large fir tree fell over from the weight of the snow taking out the right wing of the house. Dad and Gramps had to find ways to block it off to keep the warmth in the living room. That blizzard lasted a week, and it was another few days before they were able to get out. Luckily they had plenty of bottled water, and food they could cook over the open fire.

My dad was a High Mountain Ranger and mom a stay at home mom. Though mom did spend a lot of time on her family Ranch. Big Sky that the Deveraux's owned. She was born a Deveraux, and worked with horses there. Though after I was born she cut back on training horses and working with them. Instead of doing it as a full time job like before she was now doing it as a hobby. Which she loved. When I was two mom had my sister Ryot who became my best friend as well as my little sister. Five years later she had Nevaeh, and it was two years later she had Katana. My only brother Colton was born a year later. Year after him was Annachi, and a year later the baby girl Valkyrie was born. All of us have awesome unique names and our middle names fit in great. I was named Rebel Lee. Ryot Lynn, Nevaeh Eden, Katana Blade, Colton, poor boy, just has plain Richard which is a family name. Annachi Bliss, and Valkyrie Storm.

I got my first mini bike when I was four. Right away wrecked it breaking my arm much to dad's dismay. A few days later I was right back up on my bike. Not letting the cast hinder me. Like mom says you get bucked off of a horse you get right back on. Otherwise you never will. The fear will conquer you. I definitely wasn't going to let the fear conquer me. So when dad got home that day from his shift he was more than surprised to find me riding my mini bike. Mom was sitting on the porch holding Ryot watching me. I was upset though that dad and mom both refused to take me over to the Deveraux track to ride till my cast was off. They said riding around the yard was enough for now.

When I did get my cast off I tore up that track like I owned it. Though my great grandfather was the one who built it, and my grandfather added to it. My mother was born a Deveraux. On days she goes over to work with the horses she would take me and Ryot. Though Ryot was in the playpen most of the time back then. I'd be off with my older cousins and friends riding on the dirt bike track. Finally I was old enough to get to move up to a dirt bike. It took me a bit to get used to the weight of it, but I picked it up and was tearing up the track on that. Ryot was getting her first mini bike around then. I made sure to give her pointers on riding that I had picked up even though I was only six. Dad would just chuckle and add to it if need be. I was in motocross as soon as I was able to competing and taking it serious.

My best friend was River Falcon. I much preferred hanging out with him and the other boys to other girls my age. Though when the girls joined us it wasn't too bad. We were usually off getting into some kind of mischief. If our parents found out half the crap we got up to they probably would have had heart attacks. It's a wonder we didn't break our necks or get ourselves killed with what all we came up with. It was more than fun though. Especially setting up a jump over the river which was about ten feet below. There was nothing like that adrenaline rush as we took off flying over it. Sure once in a while someone would end up in the river, but we'd fish them, and their bikes out.

I was around eight when my Aunt Zarah and Uncle Zevidiah were murdered. Their sons Zevran and Zane came to live with us after that. Zev was two years younger than I at six and Zane was just a baby still at one. Mom was grief sicken at losing yet another sibling. Zarah and her has been as close as two sisters could be. Still though she took Zev and Zane in without hesitation. Often she could be found holding one of them or both of them crying. It was heartbreaking, and she still grieves for her sister. She always made sure though to keep the memory of Aunt Zarah alive in their eyes as well as to me and my siblings.

Getting to junior high was a milestone. I couldn't wait to try out for sports. I didn't even consider running ones. I went out for volleyball and became a spiker. When I spiked that ball they were lucky if they were able to stop it. Basketball became a bit more of a contact sport with me playing. During PE we learned archery, and I fell in love with it. I joined the archery team and it brings the song this is how legends are made to mind. I even got dad to get me a crossbow and learned how to use it. Once in a while I felt the urge to shoot an arrow at one of the girls who were always coming onto River. It more than irritated me. Took his time away from me, and I hated it! He'd had girls swarming around him though since we were in the second grade. I won't lie I shed a few tears when he would actually date one, but I definitely wasn't going to let him know that!

I was sixteen when my Aunt Valentina and Uncle Tristan were killed along with my grandparents. I was sixteen and just down the street from where it happened. Just having been about to go into Rosewoods with River and some of our other friends. My cousins Shea and Rafferty and their girls were with us too. Ransym and Ryot as well. They had already gone inside, and I was about to when I heard the gunfire. My head shot in that direction seeing my grandmother down the block fall, and my grandfather catch her. My breath caught seeing him trying to get her to shelter when he was shot as well.

A scream of horror escaped me, and I was about to run in that direction into the line of fire, but River caught me literally picking me up and getting me inside Rosewood Soda Shop. I heard Michael Rosewood yelling at kids in there to get to the back and get down. While he was grabbing his shotgun and heading outside. I was fighting and screaming against River. He got me to the back and sat down holding me tight in his arms, as I screamed and fought till I broke down. I heard Ransym ask his brother why I was fighting him. My sobbing answer rang out through the soda shop. "My grandparents were just shot!" I heard gasps from my cousins there as well as others, but none of us moved as the gunfire still raged outside.

In the aftermath it wasn't just my grandparents killed, but my aunt and uncle as well. I hadn't seen them with my grandparents, but they had been. Some criminals had been robbing the jewelry store down the block, and got into a showdown with the law. Quite a few lost their lives that day. I always felt like there was something that I could have done to try and save them, but I don't blame River for holding me back at all. I probably wouldn't have lived to tell the tale. The days after were horrible hearing my mother's sobs and screams. She's lost her brother Tristan and best friend Valentina as well as her parents.

River was by my side helping me through all of it. It was during that period that we finally got together. At that age we moved fast in our relationship. After all we had been best friends since childhood. One afternoon even though we weren't supposed to be in his room alone we'd had a little fun. He had to go somewhere getting a call from his dad to come help him. I took my time getting dressed telling him I would see him later then that I had better get home. Once I was dressed I headed out of his room and down to the stairway to head down to the foyer. I had just gotten to the top when I heard a voice hiss. "Your not making me a grandmother already you little whore!" Before I had time to react I was pushed hard. A scream escaped as I went falling down the stairs. How I didn't break my neck I have no idea, and remember the pain laying there at the bottom of the stairs hearing someone's screams, but everything went black.

Coming to in the hospital it took me a little bit to realize where I was. I was hooked up to IV's and felt horrid. My mom was instantly there at my side telling me everything was going to be alright. I couldn't remember what had happened. When I asked why I was in the hospital mom said I had fallen down the stairs at Nightingale mansion. I frowned not remembering it at all. "Where's River? He didn't fall did too did he?" I asked, and she quickly assured me that he was fine. Though I was sure I heard her mutter under her breath if my dad didn't kill him first. I figured I just imagined it as drugged up as I was.

Mom had a long talk with me telling me I had a miscarriage when I fell down the stairs when I woke up the next time, and was more alert. I was shocked as I had no idea I was even pregnant. We had used protection. I'd lost a lot of blood and had to have blood transfusions as a result. That night I woke up screaming as it all came back in my dreams. I remembered hearing the cold voice and the push on my back. Dad who was there with me that night held me as I sobbed. The next day I talked to my parents telling them what I had remembered. Mom knew it had to be Solstice who pushed me, but there was no way we could prove it. I made them promise not to tell anyone that I had lost a baby. I didn't want River to know and be heartbroken as well. Especially if his mother was the one responsible for me losing it. I knew he already didn't have a good relationship with her. I didn't want to make things worse with them.

Finally I got to see him, and I was more than heartbroken keeping what happened from him. I hated knowing I had lost a baby that was just beginning. Something that had come from River's and my love for one another. When I left the hospital I was on birth control. Though dad grumbled I shouldn't even be thinking about it. Mom had just said to ignore him. Things went back to as normal as they could be after that. Though harboring this secret was killing me. Dad always narrowed his eyes when River would come around. He didn't like his baby girl was growing into a woman already. I was still his little girl. Still though he had always liked River, and he knew he wouldn't hurt me.

Time passed us by, and senior year rolled around. River and I were up for Homecoming King and Queen. Riding in the parade in a convertible was fun. We threw bags and bags of candy out to the kids. When we went by the grade school kids we had little footballs we would throw out to them, and later in the parade. River made sure to throw one to each of his siblings who caught them. I threw them at my siblings too. I made sure to throw a couple to my parents when we went by them. River had one for his dad and tossed it to him who made a dramatic catch on purpose making us laugh. Ransym and Ryot were on a convertible too with them being Sophomore attendants.

Before we knew it we were graduating. I had been working part time for the High Mountain Rangers since I turned sixteen and was going full time after that. Dad loved that I was following in his footsteps. River and I weren't always on the same shifts, but sometimes we got to work together. River had started prospecting to the Wild Wolves MC when he turned eighteen. No I didn't ride on his bike with him but when I had to since I had my own Harley that my parents had taken me to get when I turned sixteen. It was definitely my pride and joy! Cherry red and not a scratch on it.

That summer River proposed to me. I felt a pang at the secret I had kept from him for years now, but quickly pushed it back. I smarted off and told him I would think about it. I actually kept him hanging for a few days. When I told mom about it she couldn't believe I had actually said that to him with him down on one knee. When I told Ryot about it she laughed. Only she knew what it was like loving a Falcon boy. Ryot was my best friend, and that day I had her promise me that what I needed to tell her she'd never tell anyone. Especially Ransym. I broke down as I told her my secret and she held me as we cried together for a while. One day I would tell River, but I just couldn't as it still hurt too much, and I didn't want him to feel that way too.

I finally told him yes that I wanted to be his wife more than anything, and spend the rest of my life with him. Ransym and Ryot got married shortly after that. I was the maid of honor and River the best man. It was definitely a fun and wonderous day. River and I married a few months later. Of course Ransym was the best man and Ryot my maid of honor. The rest of my sisters were bridesmaids, and Colton was a groomsman with his brothers. His baby sister Shiloh was the miniature bride and my cousin Rory the miniature groom. Rivers little cousin Curro was the ringbearer.

When Ryot got pregnant I felt a pang of jealousy, but I was happy for her. Her first son they named Ransym Jr and named River and I as his godparents. Ransym Jr has had me wrapped around his little finger since the first moment I held him in the hospital. If Ransym and Ryot needed a break then they'd leave Ransym Jr with us. It was hard to let him go if he spent the night or even just a few hours. Made me long more and more for one of my own. Even though we were trying it just wasn't working. When Ryot had Aslan and then their baby Cove my heart was splitting a bit more in heartache every time.

I was depressed a lot and became a bit unsociable at times. The secret was eating me up inside, and I hated it. I couldn't give us a child and it was all my fault. Losing that baby when I was sixteen from the fall down the stairs had left me unable to bear children. I just knew it. River knew I was holding something back from him, and it was starting to affect our marriage. I hated that. I made an appointment with Kayla Garard finally knowing I needed to be seen. Maybe there was something out there to help us get pregnant. I knew I had to do something. I also knew I had to tell River what was wrong, but I just couldn't.